Job, Health, caregiving issues....and virtual lusting....

Yes, its been a while since I posted......I need to get ready for Thanksgiving and I want a new job!

Other than that, not much has been going on, except that I did make it a year on the job, although the last two months dealing with a boss who can be condescending was rough. She definitely has her issues and I am trying to deal with them without losing my cool but I have came close to it several times. I have been checking out other opportunities, and did put in a few applications. My goal is to just hang in there until the end of January or February and hopefully get back in school.

I am dealing with a health issue of my own, and with my grandparents who are in their 90's and 80's. I go by and help them out when I can, although I work a demanding job that is about forty miles away from them. My cousins have suggested that my grandmother needs to go in assisted care, but I know my grandfather won't go for that, and I support him. If the family rallies around them, I believe that they could stay in their home as long as they receive assistance. What makes it hard to assist them is that both of them, especially my grandfather, who is dealing with lung cancer, are chain smokers. My mother spends a day there but she did let me know that the smoke gets to her after a while and she has to step outside. One of my aunts who moved to be closer to my other grandmother, came with me on Saturday. I was glad for her assistance, since she takes care of the other grandmother everyday when she gets off of work. I once considered moving in with them until my kids finished school but the smoking issue and being a homeowner, squashed that ideal right away.

As I helped my grandmother maneuver herself out the bed to her walker, I understand why it is so important to keep yourself flexible. I am going back to walking as soon as I get my health issue cleared up. I had quit during the summer due to the heat, but I do not care how cold it is, I am going to try to walk at least once a week, even if it is just up to the mail box and back. I do go up and down stairs while I am at work, and that helps immensely. But I fear to be at the present weight that I am now when I become one of the elderly, because I already know that folks will not want to lift me on a regular basis. I remember hearing stories from my sister, friends and a niece who worked in the senior homes, and their issues of trying to care for an overweight person.

Although I do not weigh more than the average healthy football player, people will still view me as being obese. Even my grandparents have the audacity to ask me on a weekly basis when I am going to lose weight. Being the outspoken person that I usually am, it is SO HARD not to ask them back: “When are you going stop smoking?” But what is also has me more concerned about my weight now is not the way I appear to people, it is the higher rates that health insurers are trying/starting to charge overweight people even if they never had health issues. Although I do not have health insurance yet, I feel like I am being socked in the gut twice with my current Detroit resident vehicle rates and future health insurance rates.

Regarding music.....Before I ever heard his music, I have been crushing on Ben Harper. I thought he was beautiful when I first laid eyes on him. Alas he is already taken, but lucky is the lady that is personally serenaded by him.....