Misty musing, beings on the edge, and a list....

Random musing:

Misty Rainy Morning. My yard/plants definitely needed it. I sat on the porch this morning and enjoyed the quiet and solitude. I feel for the Dream Cruiser organizers and participants, but they did have a good day yesterday and weather during the last two years. Hopefully the sun will come out this afternoon.

Last summer when I hosted five extra kids for the month of August, my computer took a beating and crashed last September. After eight kids using the unit for a month, the hard drive died. I lost a mega load of links and is slowly compiling them again, although I doubt that I will find all of them. This morning I found a site link that I had bookmarked before, called The Snowsuit Effort. I have seen some of the city and homeless folks whose pictures are featured there. Some of them I may have observed, dodged around, given money to, or watched pick through the remains at Eastern Market. Those faces still belong to somebody's family/tribe. They are someone's mother, father, brother, sister, son, daughter, godchild, niece, nephew or cousin. Looking at those pictures reminded me that we are not far removed from being homeless. Having loving and extended family and friends helps keep many of us off that edge. So far, life has shown me that you will really see who is in your corner when you are in dire straits or desperate need for assistance, and hopefully through the grace of God, those people will be able to come through for you.

One interesting Detroit character, a guy pictured on the site called Tommy, has been around for years and I've always wondered about him. I don't think he is homeless and was featured as a face about town. Tommy's June 3, 2005 quote indicated that he is 47.......... okay, but I remember seeing him when I was younger and worked downtown. Occasionally I would see him at downtown and at Eastern Market. His hair was usually brightly colored (carrot) and he was very friendly. I realize now that once I had his color five years ago. Back then I was not as outgoing as I am now, and our conversation never went beyond hello. Observing him back then, he seemed very bubbly and his voice reminded me of the director Billy Wilder and a little bit of Truman Capote.

Looking forward to attending this wedding this afternoon. It is a beginning for my cousin's daughter and I am in the mood to celebrate new beginnings because I am currently dealing with an ending. My guy and I have unofficially called it quits again for the third time in twenty-something years. Ironically, it seems to always happens during the month of August. There were unresolved issues from the past, proposed cohabiting compromises that never would come about, along with dissimilar goals and desires.
Oh well, that is the result when a Leo and Taurus try to merge. I hope that the next man that has a mutual attraction with me is either:

1. Cancer,
2. Capricorn,
3. Virgo,
4. The rest. Sag, Taurus, etc........

(Disclaimer: I know there are some people whose beliefs conflicts with this view, but as a person who does believe in God and the additional sights that is given to us, I do believe that this does has some bearing on our existence.)

But personality wise, it just wasn't a good fit, although we felt we were great as lovers. Some say the third time is a charm, but with that union, I believe that we have struck out permanently. I do feel much lighter now, maybe because the pressure, expectations, and tension is gone. The old dear high school crush friend brief reunion has faded out also. He will always be a good friend that can make me laugh, and I truly doubt it will be nothing more than that. As a never married grandfather with considerable amount of offspring, and a string of broken relationships, the guy is like a flirty, very curious deer, but nervous and poised to take flight at any sign of being detained.

A year after my divorce, I told my sister what I wanted in a guy, and I remember her cynically telling me that it does not exist. When I celebrated a friend's birthday this week at a blues bar, I told her about my list and that I wished similar for her, she simply told me those qualities could not be found here in Detroit, to look elsewhere, or wait until my kids became grown. Then she proceeded to tell me that she has sworn off men and sex. I wanted to say something like “Yeah Right.......” But since we were celebrating her birthday, I smiled, shook my head and launched into another subject. However by being the eternal optimist when it comes to relationships, I still have my grocery list. Just think a bit of The Witches of Eastwick for a moment.

Wanted: A Friend, Lover, Comrade, and Occasional Escort

Required Qualifications: A person who understands their place in this world, is trying to better it the best way they can without a Superman complex, but is a person of action, a risk taker in moderation who will step up when necessary. Seeking a guy who is physically and mentally tough, but tender also, like when engaging in pillow and baby talk, and witty enough take and sling verb barbs with cynical teenagers that believe that they know it all. Wishing for someone who is a good conversationalist, diplomant, shrewd negotiator, has a sense of humor (sometimes wicked), long with a sense of compassion/kindness combined with honor/integrity, a curious seeker of knowledge, a recognizer of wisdom/coupled with a belief/fear in God, and is also a self-sufficient/self-aware/self-secure being that does recognize that they have vulnerabilities, but mentally strong not to let them diminish them as a person.

Skills: Technology adept, understands how to measure, is manual/power-tool handy, somewhat knows their way around a vehicle, a kitchen, and also knows how to use the controls of the washing machine and dryer. Definitely needs to understand the working and pleasuring of the sensitive parts of a woman's body too. Must be able to read/decipher the minimal and abstract assembly instructions that come with anything made in foreign countries and be able to still put the item together without it coming apart later.

Other qualifications and skills desired that may be obtained later: Masseuse therapist, Horticulturist, and Road Trip planner and navigator.

Note to self: Need to check my qualifications later.................

Other observations.............

Could not help it but........
Has anyone noticed that the murder suspect John Mark Karr looks a little like a long lost anorexic little brother of actor Billy Zane?