Where is the logic?? Another one bits the dust........

I liked Fanchon Stinger of Fox TV News (Channel Two) and will miss watching her broadcasts. Fox TV Channel Two did benefit from having her on their news team, but had to let her go once news got out about her being a consultant to a company under a Federal probe . Her news delivery and reports were very polished and professional, which is really lacking here in this area. It seems that most of our downfall as women, is getting so caught up with guys or money that we lose all sense of self and respect. I must admit that I been there before also, but self preservation brought me back from the brink of losing myself. It is sad that Ms. Stinger did not use good judgment, or she let greed overtake common sense, whatever the case may be with this scandal. There is so much mess is coming out with our Detroit's city government, especially now with this Synagro Technologies scandal, that I have chilled out watching the news and reading our local papers. I get most news from radio/online, and it is so easier to turn off, which is preferable right now because it will be a while before the issues with our local government be cleared up. Watching TV news for me at times, is somewhat like driving past a horrendous car accident and you can't stop gazing at the wreckage.

But we all have issues, some tame and some not so workable.

Still have the hair issue. My hair is slowly growing in and I have been dealing with it. I only pulled out the wig twice, but the humidity made me abandon it. I have been wearing my scarves and hats lately also. But after checking my head out today, I am growing more comfortable about it.....But my vain self will be glad when I get some length back. Went to a local event in the hood and saw a lot of old acquaintances. I wore my snazzy hat. It was all good and interesting seeing folks. As usual I flirted, enjoyed some gossip,and had some questions answered. I enjoyed hanging out with them and felt a bit hopeful about the future.

Had to help out the Ex last week when my son called me for assistance. He injured himself and ended up in the hospital. I had to transport him there, and realized that I had not been to that emergency in two years when my son injured himself flipping off his grandparents' porch stoop. The Ex banged himself up pretty bad and I felt sorry for him because it could have been avoided, but it's hard trying to get the guy to understand that he needs to change his life. Part of me wants to get more involved, but that is a slippery slope, and he ain't trying to extend himself to me either. Counseling has not helped in the past, or maybe the Ex just has not met the right counselor, or he just can not be reached until he is motivated and ready. Another thing is that my friend has a issue, although he really can not make a claim because he has not really verbally expressed or stated EXACTLY when and what he wants from me either. So that is the paradox of caring for folks that are mentally scarred and fearful.

But I need to worry about myself. I may have to move soon, and my options of another residence are available, but are not what I desire. I must emphasize that I am very grateful for those options. I like my place, but can no longer afford it, like many folks that are out of work here. I hate to move, although moving allows you to clean house, and shed yourself of things that you no longer need. However, pulling up roots is a bit traumatic for me. Getting acclimated to a new climate takes some time, and I just am not looking forward to do it. At times like many girls, I sometimes fantasize that I had a knight in shining armor to rescue me, but I have never had that luck, although I have know of several girls that have been that fortunate, but it does not last forever. So it is just God and me right now, and I keep the faith that he will work the situation out, although like most of his children, I am hoping that it be in my favor, which really means to the way I Want It To Be...